Well, I didn't know that that meant so much to all my love ones. Btw I've decided to ask my brother to lock my laptop which means, No More Internet. Let's bid farewell, Goodbye.
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Jay Chou.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
So much to say, but this is not the place to do so. I'm leaving this space, I need the time for things that are more important.
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Wordless.
Monday, May 24, 2010
OK.
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One by one.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Things have changed.
Btw, this is for a very special friend in my life, Sanba: I didn't intend to be so emotional, and I thought I could take things easy and respect your choice because it's definitely a much more beneficial and serious one. From the very start, I must admit this fact, that I guarded my heart very very much so that I won't get into those same bloody situations like I did before/ any agonising issues again in my should-be-peaceful life. But yes, I failed as I found myself kinda weeping over your soon departure. Thankyou for everything you gave. I could still remember vividly, the time when I was having my worst menstrual cramps and you came with the expensive chocolates though I hate eating chocolates, the moments when you passed by my working place and shouted 'Sanba', the heart-to-heart chat in class when you told me exactly what should I do for my r/s and hit the nail for my full (very complicated) personality. I appreciates your frankness that I would never possess, I looks up to your all-day bubbly character trait, I envy your boldness for everything (dressing, disagreements in things) in your life. I recalled the time when Zhaoyi and me were giving you a Birthday surprise and ended up getting a shock ourselves instead. Laughs. Now that I'm typing all this, my tearducts start to act uncontrollably. I will restrain myself from crumbling, I will survive even with your absence. Like you said, we will work together emotionally even though we are going seperate ways. Our paths are clear, the goals are definite, our minds are no longer scattered. I'm sincerely wishing you all the best for your further days on your own. It'll be a right choice and our sacrifices would be worth it. I will definitely wipe out my tears and start the new chapter by myself.
I foresee us celebrating for our success, what about you? People do come and leave your life anytime, right?
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Everyone is lovesick, isn't it?
Friday, May 21, 2010
// Can you miss someone too much? I'm not dead yet. Currently @ Zahidah's house using free internet! So much better than using at the internet cafe, have to remain silent throughout. Brother forgotten to pay the internet bill and went overseas! Okay, I think I can concentrate better w/o the net right! I didn't have a chance to tell you that: I wasn't feeling good without you too.
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End of time.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
I could still remember, who am I supposed to watch Titanic with.
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Mad cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
// Was hopping thru blogs in Tumblr and yes I found this very special and adorable one! Please note, it's all self-made by the blogger! I bet every guy love sucha girl with insane talent right! Here you go: http://www.happymonsters.tumblr.com
Wait,
\\ Not going to blog till tuesday or so.
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My heart's best friend.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Well, should I just dump my phone away?
Btw, I realised that it's really the time to stop missing people/ pretty little things in your life. Missing them makes you gloomy when it's an obvious fact that they won't be back in the same way again. Memories seriously suckzx. When you come upon certain places/ things, it reminds you of what you did previously with that special someone/ any incident. I wish I have a 'delete' button. I no longer wish to think about those people, regardless it's good/ bad ones. These memories stop you from what you are doing, obstruct you like an obstacle. People have too much wants, they cannot stop for too long. I no longer wish to live in the past, that dreadful past. Just let me off, don't ever ask me about anything that you know I hate to answer. I'm happy with my current life, with what I have and what I'm trying to get. Please stop holding me back, nothing will be back, I swear to keep the memories in a safe corner of my heart. But it's still not the time to reminisce yet. I'm seriously feeling tiresome to remind and guard my heart. Sucha paradox, damn.
(I'll start eating anyway.)
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What do you take me as?
Thursday, May 13, 2010
I went to the doctor today and I was astounded. I wanted to consult the doctor for the reason why I'm always feeling breathless, for like a month or so?
Here is the conversation between the doctor and me: Doctor: Anything wrong with you? Me: I'd been feeling breathless these days. Doctor: How long did you notice this sign? Me: More than a month I guess? Doctor: Did you do anything that led to this? Me: I don't think so........ But I could literally feel that. Doctor: What do you normally do and you feel breathless? Me: After I climb the stairs? It's not those long flight of stairs or running up them btw. Doctor: How many levels do you climb and you feel that way? Me: 2-3 levels._. Doctor: What else would you feel after which? Me: I need a very long time to feel normal, to breathe normally. Doctor: Show me your palm. Me: *Held out my palm, just a normal white/ pale looking one. Doctor: *Took out his palm, comparing. Me: What's wrong with mine? I have fair skin right? Doctor: -.- You don't have enough red blood cells. Yours is so pale. Me: Oh............................. Okay. Doctor: *Requested for my mom. Doctor: Auntie, your daughter don't eat alot normally? Mom: Yeah. She always fall asleep before I'm back with her lunch. And, she don't eat much during exam periods? Doctor: I want to look at your tummy.
After which, he decided to give me vitamin pills/ pills rich in Iron for a month consumption. But, I can't swallow those big pills and it cannot be cut! What should I do?!!!!!
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// I can't speak.
Should I leave for good?
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Despicable outsider.
Save your words. Stop wrecking my relationship. Save your efforts. You've a bad heart, and I think you should just go and reflect about it. I used to be susceptible to people's comments and get influenced very easily by other's advices and thoughts. But wait, it's a freaking 19 months of enduring love for my boy. Do you think what you'd said matters? Or do you even think I'll let my heart waver for the nonsense you had always spouted and thoughts you are inculcating into me? Well, I would say that you think too highly of yourself. You're definitely not a true and nice friend I would want to keep by my side. I mean, I don't mind losing sucha friend. I'm just waiting for a chance to say this into your face. Just wait. Btw, I'm warning you to keep a distance from me/ maybe us too. And I know you'll be reading this.
// I just don't want to sound like some crude ladies so I did not include any words that sound offending/ vulgars.
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Let me cure you.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Few more papers to go, I'll endure and be back here soon. Tons of photographs in my phone!
If only things are that easy to possess, to solve.................................................................................
(Btw, thx for those who left your advices/ words in my formspring.)
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An Alluring Lady.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Angelababy is so beautiful that it makes me wanna cry!
Okay, I think I'm saving up for plastic surgery!
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So sweet back then.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Tell her that you love her. You’ve got nothing to lose, and you’ll always regret it if you don’t.
