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\\ I will free us.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Oh hi, it's my month.

That's not my bed, I'm a neat freak! Definitely not so messy.

We just got a pair of engagement(lesbian) rings and I lost it in 5 hours' time? Damn it. Btw, we brought it at a flea market and it's really affordable! You'll guess the price.

Now, the overdues.

This is worse, months back.

I'm hitting seventeen 17 within 24 days. I'm so not looking for it. Probably some simple celebrations as Gce O levels English Oral Examination is on my birthday. Or maybe I should be like others, throwing birthday aside. I wish I can stay at sixteen for my whole entire life you know. Oh man.

And, I won't update any sooner than 2 weeks or later? Perhaps I'm closing down this site? Let's see how it goes. One thing for sure that I won't be logging into some sites like how I used to. We need all the time for something else.

See you in the battlefield, combative whores and distorted monsters.

\\ The lengths we went.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Unusual and tragic and alive. All at once. I need to breathe, I need to think, I need to leave. Hanging out at tumblr makes my life better. This routine is killing me from inside out. Hold my hand and we'll go somewhere new, somewhere that we can see no thunderstorms anymore. I swear I'll burn this place down before we leave.

Words wouldn't be enough. Maybe feelings are just suitable to describe how it is all like.

I swear I'm nuts.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

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Yes, Park.

// Start self-deceiving.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

This time is pretty fast right. Uploaded only the I-looked-fine ones, I think 80% of the photographs are gross. Fats, come back to your owner. Curves, I'm looking for you. Weight, Mommy love you. I wish you all would be back soon. I wish someone would cast a spell on me to make me eat 5 meals a day.

And, I don't even feel like blogging anything personal in here. It's true that everyone have 3 lives; Public life, Private life and Secret life. Agree?

We are in ruins.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Happy me, hugging and cuddling the oh-so-cheap Alien Plush toy! It's $10 only man. Don't say I'm cheap skate, it's originally $16.90 at 7-11 store? I brought it in Takashimaya! Initially wanted to get a tote bag from Long Champ? Things have changed, I've my own budget now........ Brought an Armani Exchange basic tee and a big shoulder bag that looks really nice. It's the only one that caught my eyes after so many different shopping malls. Something is very wrong with my taste I swear. I'm left with extra cash and I'm so gonna spend it on.... FOOD. I WILL EAT AND GAIN AS MUCH WEIGHT ASAP.

Sometimes, I do wish that I can be easily-contented as the past. Life was so much happier and easier back then. Well, I'd grown up and changed too much. Looking back makes me sigh so much awwww. Why the hell are all the girls going for branded goods? I know I'm one of which. But I must say that that $10 Alien Plush toy made my day. I brought it for myself and I know that's real pathetic. But it sums up my whole week, making the week a meaningful one? And, I done lots of catch up with Stella, one of the closest ones. I really love being myself in front of the few. The way I joke, the way I open up to the world, the way I laugh out like some insane bitch, I mean, I at least enjoyed myself.

Oh well, I need a sleep, perhaps with a sweet dream. Just 1, I'm not greedy. So looking forward for some productive study session the next 2 days. And a long break from the net, from the outside world. I think we should all treasure the time we have on our own, like minutes before you sleep. The tranquility is indeed indescribable. You know...?

Thank you for reading this so bloody wordy post. (Ugly me) photographs is still with her, soon I will blog them up.

// I'll kill you without a sound.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Girls should just behave like girls. Oh no, I don't mean being gentle or so. I mean, we should all stay put and wait for guys to come after us. We shouldn't be like a fool to do everything for them, to touch their hearts, to wait like a fool. Ask yourself, if you are a girl yourself, have you ever stare at your mobile phone for a moment and wish that a particular guy texts/ calls you? And, in the end, you did not get any text, any missed call, anything. Guys are just capable for giving tons of fake hopes. I don't mean to insult the other gender, I mean those who are flirting around like jerks or perhaps some indecisive ones. Maybe what Zahidah said is right. Guys at our age are just playing, dating around, not ready to commit although they promise their girls verbally. Poor girls will be throwing in everything and getting their hearts broken. Over means over for guys and broken means broken for girls. We don't get over things in a day/ a week/ a month like you heartless people. We remember every single conversations we had with you guys, every little pinky promise you guys ever made, every plan we once discussed about, every single detail of the bloody relationship. And yes, we definitely cling on much longer than you all do. We don't let go of things we once fought so hard for, we don't smash hearts like as if they are ours/ hearts are cheap and we do a lot of thinking before we make a grave decision. Maybe it's because I've seen too much dramas and happenings near me, or maybe on me myself, I think girls should stand for their own rights. Make your stance. Make up your mind. I don't like that kind of wishy-washy attitude. Don't leave misunderstandings as they are, don't leave unspoken words aside, don't dump love as if they are worthless. How many love ones do you have in your entire life excluding your family members and true friends? Don't turn me off with the answer that you love anyone that loves you back. Treasure as you promised, cherish if you can, love as much as you want because... you will never know when will everything be over. I bet you wouldn't want to break down and cry over spilled milk when your love one is gone. Live life with no regrets, we only live for once. Don't tell me you're leaving dreams and plans to your bloody next life, that's all crap and senseless thoughts. Don't say things like the grass is greener on the other side/ there are much more fishes in the sea for you. I know, we are all young, this is most probably not the last relationship, in fact we can have more. But please, I'm sure you will change the mindset slightly when you hit the right one, when you fall in love. And, I mean love, not puppy love or crazy crush like going gaga over a handsome senior. Oh crap. One more thing, don't expect the other party to know what the hell you are thinking and leave those words unspoken or kept in your heart. It's fine to have privacy, to give each other space and to save some room in your heart for other stuffs. But wait, not everyone have telepathy as though it's something so easy to be attained. Girls can get tired to scanning your scattered minds, we are not a scanner or whatsoever. "Perhaps she will know without me saying. I think she's pretty smart in reading my mind." This is total stupidness, trust me, in the end when she doesn't get the message you are signalling, you will regret and whine.

Fine, perhaps it's time of the month for girls that I'm feeling utterly tiresome about life, about love, about stopping by. I need a shower, or maybe I should try cold shower to feel refreshed, to restart my body.

If I have a chance, I might have make things right for us.

// Closed-minded existence.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

As mentioned previously, I'm posting up photographs taken on the movie trip with my lady, Vyennus. There are soooooo many of them and I picked the best shots from the album in Facebook. Best shots simply mean the ones that do not seem obscene? In short, at least we will look good in those shots!

Trying to take a decent shot with her phone, it's hard you see.

I'm trying to think of a way to get this standing poster. Hmmmm. Will they sell when the promotion of this phone is over? But, my brother will definitely have an issue with me for bringing it home.

As expected, we took a shot with Oppa Min Ho.

Countless shots using this lady's laptop.

I think it's senseless. The photographs look real good in her phone's screen. Yet, now...

I've big head and she has big big big face. See the difference?

Oh yeah, I was wearing a shorts in there. Please. In case you think it's a bloody short dress.

We are very good friends since primary school days. To be frank, we had certainly witnessed so much changes in each other's lives.

I'd been thinking on whitening my elbow. Hmmmm. My elbows are particularly dark-toned?

One best thing about hanging out with this girl is the fact that no matter how artificial I looked, how superficial I spoke, I was always enjoying myself. This is how comfortable it gets when you're around with someone close to your heart. It's a kind of mature friendship which we do not have to contact/ text every single day to keep it going. We all have our own lives to lead, but just remember that we are pillars for each other at the end of the day! I know you'll be reading my blog when you're so bloody bored in class! Supper soon okay! And, I'm booking you for Breaking dawn this time round though it might not be worth it.

I took approximately 40 minutes for this post and it's really a waste of my time! I smells like salted fish, I swear I have to shower now. I have tons of work to complete and using the net is utterly out of my mind. Won't be back too soon, tumblr still!