"If you want the rainbow, then jolly well put up with the rain."

When I was reading the newspapers today, I was mumbling the contents to my mom and flipping on and on. Seriously, I didn't expect her to tell me that one of the latest news: death of the 4-year-old little girl, is actually the only daughter of this auntie who lives in our neighbourhood. Although I have seriously no idea who they were, but I feel kinda a pity and perturbed by this piece of depressing news. I know you must be thinking that I'm really nosy and that's really none of my business in any sense. But I could literally see and feel how vulnerable a life could be. Suddenly, it makes me look around me and start to reflect on things that I'd been taking for granted on. As compared to the past, I think I'm not as much of a spoilt brat already. Ever since my beloved Granny moved to my cousin's apartment which is totally so far away, I started to get used to having nobody to talk to and living in an almost-deserted house. But of course, it's not as dramatic as completely no contact with her. I do ring her up when I'm on my way home from school daily. The conversation can last up to really long, an hour or more. But still, I prefer talking to her face-to-face and holding her wrinkled and trembling pair of hands. I feel really blessed with her in my sight, she's almost like the most indispensable person in my life. Well, she's no longer living with me and every visit to my cousin's house is so damn precious for me. And it's really hard to make time out on weekly basis, no excuse seriously. Btw, I'd never experience loss of a close kin in my whole 16 years on Earth so I really can't empathise with those devastating feelings. Rest in peace, Little girl.
Overall, I realised how things have changed for me in my life, I somehow learnt something out of it. It's afterall a paradox you know. Sometimes when you have everything, you feel like you have nothing at all. This feeling is unexplainable, abit of no logic thinking. *Laugh
So, I guess it's time to cherish what I possess and love life. But first, loving myself will be the outmost important task for now. There are many things I still can't get over with, but life would still go on. Changes are inevitable whether you like them or not.