// I'll kill you without a sound.
Girls should just behave like girls. Oh no, I don't mean being gentle or so. I mean, we should all stay put and wait for guys to come after us. We shouldn't be like a fool to do everything for them, to touch their hearts, to wait like a fool. Ask yourself, if you are a girl yourself, have you ever stare at your mobile phone for a moment and wish that a particular guy texts/ calls you? And, in the end, you did not get any text, any missed call, anything. Guys are just capable for giving tons of fake hopes. I don't mean to insult the other gender, I mean those who are flirting around like jerks or perhaps some indecisive ones. Maybe what Zahidah said is right. Guys at our age are just playing, dating around, not ready to commit although they promise their girls verbally. Poor girls will be throwing in everything and getting their hearts broken. Over means over for guys and broken means broken for girls. We don't get over things in a day/ a week/ a month like you heartless people. We remember every single conversations we had with you guys, every little pinky promise you guys ever made, every plan we once discussed about, every single detail of the bloody relationship. And yes, we definitely cling on much longer than you all do. We don't let go of things we once fought so hard for, we don't smash hearts like as if they are ours/ hearts are cheap and we do a lot of thinking before we make a grave decision. Maybe it's because I've seen too much dramas and happenings near me, or maybe on me myself, I think girls should stand for their own rights. Make your stance. Make up your mind. I don't like that kind of wishy-washy attitude. Don't leave misunderstandings as they are, don't leave unspoken words aside, don't dump love as if they are worthless. How many love ones do you have in your entire life excluding your family members and true friends? Don't turn me off with the answer that you love anyone that loves you back. Treasure as you promised, cherish if you can, love as much as you want because... you will never know when will everything be over. I bet you wouldn't want to break down and cry over spilled milk when your love one is gone. Live life with no regrets, we only live for once. Don't tell me you're leaving dreams and plans to your bloody next life, that's all crap and senseless thoughts. Don't say things like the grass is greener on the other side/ there are much more fishes in the sea for you. I know, we are all young, this is most probably not the last relationship, in fact we can have more. But please, I'm sure you will change the mindset slightly when you hit the right one, when you fall in love. And, I mean love, not puppy love or crazy crush like going gaga over a handsome senior. Oh crap. One more thing, don't expect the other party to know what the hell you are thinking and leave those words unspoken or kept in your heart. It's fine to have privacy, to give each other space and to save some room in your heart for other stuffs. But wait, not everyone have telepathy as though it's something so easy to be attained. Girls can get tired to scanning your scattered minds, we are not a scanner or whatsoever. "Perhaps she will know without me saying. I think she's pretty smart in reading my mind." This is total stupidness, trust me, in the end when she doesn't get the message you are signalling, you will regret and whine.
Fine, perhaps it's time of the month for girls that I'm feeling utterly tiresome about life, about love, about stopping by. I need a shower, or maybe I should try cold shower to feel refreshed, to restart my body.
If I have a chance, I might have make things right for us.